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(m.w)
My name is Maria, I like poetry, music, cats, flowers, beautiful people and pizza.

I am riding in the passenger seat, listening to my mother talk about the ways love has failed her. I can see the fifty-six years on her face, though she wears them well. She has been called “wife” by four men, “girlfriend” by eight names she has slipped into conversation, “lover” by strangers I will never meet. When I curiously ask, “Why stay married if you’re unhappy?”, she goes stiff. ‘You don’t understand,’ she says defensively. ‘You’re just a kid.’

I am seventeen the first time a boy mentions marriage to me. We are giddy with the idea of gaining light by revealing our dark to each other. But we are too entranced by how bold shouting ‘forever’ is to know how suffocating it can be. We have no idea that we will spend months listening to each other punch ‘fiancee’ out of our speech. Or that one day, when we are sharing a bed, we will look forward to getting away from each other in sleep.

At nineteen, I am doodling in the margins of my college notebook, when my teacher says, ‘Second marriages have a 67% chance of ending in divorce. Third marriages have a 73% chance. And if you’re on your fourth, well, really, what are you doing?’ I think of my mother in her fourth unhappy marriage. I think of my father in his fifth. I wonder if picking myself up and trying again is in my genes.

I do not pick myself up and try again when I learn that I am not going to marry the first person I loved. I pack the remainder of my tiny world into two suitcases and leave the photos of us to die on our bedroom walls. I write lots of shitty poetry and tell my ghosts to ‘keep quiet’ when I think nobody is listening. The next time a boy knocks on my chest and asks, ‘How deep do you go?’, I do not show him. I say, ‘Infinitely’ and leave when he complains about the spaces in me he will not be able to fill up.

My ninety-year old grandma, with her silver hips and bullet-wound lips, tells me, in a thick accent, that ‘Nice girls should be married.’ For years, I watched her treat love as the greatest task on her ‘to-do list,’ always cooking and cleaning to keep the relationship alive. But I am too weak, too selfish, too young to carry the weight of love. She says, ‘Find someone nice and settle down,’ but I have a desire for the world that must be fed. And I am trying to first settle the disorder in my head before I think about being sharing my bed.

Forever Is Too Large To Promise | Lora Mathis  - soggypoetry (via perfect)
When you are attracted to people, it’s because of the details. Their kindness. Their eyes. The fact that they can get you to laugh when you need it the most.
Jodi Picoult, Sing You Home (via kushandwizdom)

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(via words-of-emotion)
aubbles:

July Book Photo Challenge

5. Difficult to Finish (because of violence): A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess

aubbles:

July Book Photo Challenge

5. Difficult to Finish (because of violence): A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess

claireandthepipsqueaks:

July Book Photo Challenge I Day 5. I Hard to Finish

Allegiant, by Veronica Roth. 
I did not see it coming.

claireandthepipsqueaks:

July Book Photo Challenge I Day 5. I Hard to Finish

Allegiant, by Veronica Roth. 

I did not see it coming.

poemsofthequiet:

I’m sweet, please come love me.

CUTIE OMFG

poemsofthequiet:

I’m sweet, please come love me.

CUTIE OMFG

And as I read the words I could feel my heart stop. I didn’t know if my body was suddenly engulfed in fire or ice, or if I was even breathing at all because everything stopped. Time slowed down around me and I could hear your voice enunciating each letter, syllable, word. A careful construction of hate, designed to make the listener bend over in sudden pain and clutch at their stomach.
i can’t breathe (m.w)

instagram:

Overcoming Shyness with Margot Breby

To see more of Margot’s whimsical photos and videos, follow @margotbreby on Instagram.

For Paris Instagrammer Margot Breby (@margotbreby), her style was always a way out of her shell. “I am very shy, and fashion is a good way to express myself,” she says. “Growing up, I wanted to become a stylist and I drew outfits I dreamed of wearing.”

Margot’s serene, light-soaked Instagram photos have also helped with her shyness. “It brought wonderful people into my life,” she says. “People who became true friends. I never imagined that when I began a year ago.”

Margot’s inspiration comes from eclectic sources, many of whom share her whimsical outlook. “I really love Sofia Coppola’s and Wes Anderson’s movies and Tim Walker’s photography,” she says. “I am also very inspired by other Instagrammers.”

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